Coming Back…The Purpose Of The Journey

purpose-of-journeyIt’s been 7 Months since my last post… I remember a few years back in November during a family gathering I passionately told my older sister I wanted to share my family’s Epilepsy journey so that they could understand our daily life…what things were actually like for us on a daily basis! She immediately encouraged me and  recommended that I set up a a blog and that night after everyone left I went to work.  when I first started this journey of blogging, and writing about my family’s journey with Epilepsy the writing came so easy! I was able to write straight from the heart tapping in to every emotion felt from the initial testing to the actual diagnosis and the first year in and the days afterwards. As I got into social media I immediately found a community of others who had Epilepsy or cared for someone who had Epilepsy and a friendship grew and soon days were filled encouraging and uplifting each other through long days and hard times,and soon home struggles became more and blogging became less and less.

Somewhere in the community of people I had come to the idea that my writing needed to become a fairy tale of all things happy and I lost my way, my very purpose of writing the very reason of my journey! I silenced myself and kept my family’s journey just that my family’s! Only to constantly say to myself this wasn’t the purpose of all this, we haven’t gone through all this, learned all this to not share with or encourage others!

Over the years since I have actually sat and intimately written; life has taught my family and I many things we have walked a long path and just recently  over these past months since my last entry (and even over this past year) my family has been on a very real journey with Epilepsy…and I have had to sit and ask myself the same question my sister asked those years ago when I first wanted to start this blogging journey:  “What do you want from this?” “I want others to know that they are not alone (we are not alone) on this journey! I want people to understand what it’s like for a family who lives with Epilepsy!”

It’s been 7 months since my last entry and a lot has happened but one thing that has is I had to be quieted and reminded of what I came here to social media for in the first place. I wish I could say in these months that it’s been a fairy tale but it hasn’t and that’s because I had to understand that in the journey of life nothing is! There are days filled with joys and sadness, days filled with ups and downs, days where goals are met and days where we  are doing good just to be up and moving! My purpose was to share the “real journey” with you through the mother’s eyes to shed light on life with Epilepsy to make people aware and encourage other parents and caregivers that you are not alone! That you have to take each day as it comes because that is really all you can do!

So as we celebrate November Epilepsy Awareness Month, what better way to do so then to COME BACK ! Come back to where I belong with my community of advocates, with my Epilepsy bloggers…To the purpose of my journey to write life as I see it day by day and hope that it not only encourages others but it helps them feel and become part of a community!